World Changers

Cody Nike Ethan and Chase eating pizza

Hannah thought Jolene wanted to be Batman.She did

Tonight Chase is showing Jolene all about trains. We found out Jolene will not touch the track if you put her in the middle of it, she is afraid the train will get her.

This is our group of World Changers. Amy there in pink is the teacher for the Sign language class. She is awesome

These are the World Changers

We had our World Changers DTS co op today. It was the best thing ever. We got there at 9 this morning and we had a Jewish missionary speaker there and he was so neat. He even brought a rams horn to blow which is what they blow for their New Year which was 2 days ago. I met some amazing women who have the same drive as me and thats to teach our children Christ not Man. They were truly there for there kids not themselves.Yes I need mom time with other moms but I want that mom time talking about my kids not others. After the speaker we met all the families and had lunch together. Then we had a Sing Language class and they did Jesus Loves Me which my children were taught back when they attend Wed night church. So they were really excited and very proud to know that. Sign language is a beautiful art and I think all people should learn it and use it.After that we watch these Dramas that the children will perform. Its no words but the one I show brought me to tears. It was so moving. I cant wait for them to pick which one the kids will do. We watch 4 and we have 45 kids doing the drama so they might pick 2.Usually after that we would head over to a nursing home were we are going to each adopt a family and go see them every other week with our co op. Im excited for that. I felt so good about today when I got home. The kids were beaming and I was beaming.God closed one chapter in my life and opened the most beautiful one I have been in yet. Amazing.

As for this weekend Hannah is over at her friends and Cody has a buddy over for awhile. The littles have been trains and playing like crazy. I have been blogging and laundry. Tomorrow Ill go get Hannah and her friend and we will do a bible study here on Sunday. Im hoping this weekend I can get my lesson plans down and ready for the new month and start thinking about packing. As I have been packing but I really hate it so Ill think about it and then I might actually do it :) Maybe. As far as MFW we are still in week 14 only because they love France and well we have about 20 books on it and they want to finish each book. So I hope we will.

Changes are so good

Jolene at a baby shower for my friend

Cody working

Isn't he cute

Baby squirrel we found tonight

God moves like an over flowing river.He just keeps pouring His word into me. To be back to my hold self again is so amazing I have been trying so hard to find words to describe to you but I cant. I feel 100 pounds lighter and just so much more relaxed. To wake up every morning and put a skirt on and that fake little wimpy house wife with the kids all following down the same path can get really exhausting.I use to be this laid back talk like a sailor because you looked at me wrong, do things as soon as I thought of them person. Guess what? Im back! My marriage is better, my kids are happier, my friends ( the ones that love me) are happier. I like myself. Im real. Im not pretending to be prefect.I like my kids to joke with, I like to have "fun" with my husband anywhere and any time. I like to listen to Arrowsmith,Eminem, I like to watch Frosty the snowman.I like it all. God wants us to follow His word and do the best we can in a world after the fall. With all I like and am back at doing, guess what Im not sinning. Im not hurting my relationship with Jesus, not at all. ITs so much better. Because Im not agreeing with everybody on everything that was so washed up and man made that I could barf. Barf I was doing on my own words. I listened to people who told me my family was a "bad" influence for my kids and a stumbling block. What the hell was I thinking listening to this pile of shit! Thankfully my family was PRAYING for me and hoping id come back to reality and come back to them. My sister is so happy to have me and my children back. She never said anything bad about me or questioned my life. She truly was happy to have me back. My Mom was So very excited to have the Jen back she knew the whole time was there. Thats how awesome my family is.After taking Hannah shopping and buying us all new blue jeans and work out pants that we rock by the way, I bagged up all my skirts and donated them. I look at them and my stomach turns.I thought oh maybe I should keep a few for weddings or things like that, then I said to myself" OHHH NO, who says I cant wear pants to a wedding"? So out they went!! You should have seen Hannahs face when I said throw your skirts in a bag and toss!! She was pulling them out like a kid in a candy store. HUGE bag of dresses and skirts and she was the happiest I had seen her. She is excited she gets blue and pink highlights in her hair for her birthday next week. SHE is excited to be rocking those jeans and wearing want she wants.( as long as we dont see crack we are good). She had fun and I had a blast. Little Jolene got fall/winter pant outfits and it felt so good to buy stuff that was making my happy.Honestly for the last 8 weeks waking up and getting dressed was horrible. I hated it because I knew it wasn't me. I like wearing work out pants and tennis shoes and running my treadmill and kickboxing. Im so going to lose weight now because I feel like I can. I feel like its ok to kickbox and act like im smacking people around. Its ok, Im human. I like sweating, I like being rough.I like my farm girl play in dirt and yell and just being crazy. Does that make me a sinner? Does that make me any less of a wife? Does that make me a bad person? NO!! It makes me real. Im a good person. Id bend over backwards to help anybody regardless of your opinions on things. I love all people. God has showed me that.You want to get personal... Heres a few things you may or may not no about me... I could listen to Eminem all day, I like guys in tattoos head to toe,I like playing my music so loud I cant hear anything else, I like black,I like backtalking, I like my daughters sassy talk,I like mud trucks, I want a boob job, I like that my children are real and real with God. They wake up and we do bible study and they ask question and questions and love to get deeper in the word.I like that I'm raising God fearing children.I like that my kids are so well behaved I get complements every time I go out with them.I love they have bigger hearts than any one I know. I love the fact my son will drop what ever it is he is doing to help our neighbor mow her lawn because he doesn't want her to work any more than she needs to. I love the fact my daughter will pray for someone she doesn't even know. I love the fact my daughter loves animals. AMEN!

AS far as school we managed to get bible and math done and then we had running to and didn't get back until around 4. Tomorrow I'm showing the house so I should be cleaning but I have no idea where to start. I got Before FIAR for the littles and we will start that tomorrow as well as finish up France in MFW. We move on to Germany.I cant wait. Hannah is liking her new math( Saxton).I love it as well because I don't hear "mom" every two seconds when she is doing it.Well I better go and clean.... I might just go to bed?????

True Friends

Cody and me were tossing an egg to see how long we could keep ot going...he missed this one :)

Got the walker out for Jolene but Ethan uses it as a car

The children having some summer fun with Jet

Jolene showing off her teeth

As I sit here writing this I feel like im in highschool as thats how mature these people are.True friends true people just seem to be slim pickens anymore.The people I thought were near and dear to my heart and my family have to faces and thats sad ( for them). I have seen the light and God is putting me down a different path than the one I have been on since my homeschool journey began.They stand out like a light in the woods on a dark summer night. For the last couple of months I have sat by to see if what I was feeling was right and it was. IF you are a true friend you show support,love and back them 100%. A true friend calls to see how you are doing. A friend calls just to chat because she has a moment of silence.A friend wants to listen to you when you have something to say. Im sure who ever is reading this knows a true friend and gets what im saying. I have maybe one true friend and is dealing with the same issue with the same people. I have learned SO much this last week that I feel like a new woman and a TRUE woman at that. Im tired of being like them, Im tired of doing what they do, being in the same place as them etc. Im done. I found myself and that was Gods plan the whole time. I found my walk with God to be the best thing ever. From all this over the last almost 4 years I have grown into this woman that I have tried so hard to FIT in with, woman who are so fake.Woman who put up this act in front of people and woman who Id hate to be standing by on judgement day. REALLY.When I got home around 4 today I was new. God is amazing and lead me to someone that just made it even clearer to me.Im longer "fake". Im me. That loud funny,pant wearing, music blasting,kid loven,passionate wife I was before the CRAP came in my life. Im not sorry for the "friends" I made because that was Gods plans.I made a really good friend.I will pray for the ones Im talking about and up they wake up before they suck in to many more.Boy they can judge and judge away they will. Wagging that finger when they need to turn that finger around.Im glad Im moving on and moving on smiling. God is wonderful and I feel awesome that I have that bubble around me POPPED. I live in the real world.Im also sure I will ge alot of e-mails from these people wondering what in the world am I saying etc... save it for someone who cares!!!You havent called to check on us in months, you dont e-mail to see how we are doing. You judge people and thats sad. The only reason who stayed friends is because I CALLED you, I wrote you!! You did nothing but fake smile and sit back like you guys are Holy.

Anyways on to other stuff..... The drywall in the house is done. well they have tape and mud but its up and Im in love with my house!! we also have this house we are in now up for sale. Want to buy it?? Maybe by the end of Sept we will be in it. Our foster parenting is moving right along and we start our classes this Thursday and we are BOTH excited and ready. Its been LOT of paper work and writing.If we can help one child out of this we have been blessed in what we set out to do.These children deserve a chance like all the others out there. why would you say other wise? These children need a hug, need an ear , need advice and love that is unconditional.Thats that. This is Gods walk for us and we are taking it with joy. Our schooling is slowly but surely coming along this year. we are loven MFW and FIAR.Loven it all. I bought Hannah a new curriculum for Math today. Its Saxon 5/4 I think...Id better make sure before I write that down huhhhh. But anyways it looks like to will work and Ill let you know when we try out first week. Jolene has 6 teeth now and loves to show them off. Chase loves Handy Manny, Ethan loves cowboy boots,Cody loves to work with Dad, Hannah is all about reading 39 Clues,Dad would love to get the house done and I am loving this new free feeling!!!

Baby wearing,cloth diapering and homeschooling

HOmemade monkey bread

NIce arrowheads

The lovely Jolene and Mom

sleeping soundly

Yes I do all of that.As I sit here and type this I have Jolene strapped to my back sound asleep.The Moby has been my best friend for months. When Jolene was a newborn I would snuggle her in and lift my shirt so she could nurse at will and have a skin to skin with mom all day.It worked because I have 4 other children to tend to. 2 of which are toddlers and still need me 24/7 when it comes to anything. With homeschooling my hands are free to use the board or hold a book while reading and pointing things out and she is content.I also cloth diaper my babies. I have started cloth diapering when I had Ethan almost 4 years ago. With him it was new to me and he was a heavy wetter and we went back and forth on it. When Chase came 13 months later I had the hang of it and was really addicted to it.Then Little Jolene came along and now I have days were Id like to throw every diaper out my window and scream.Well not really.Just on days when she leaks on me and totally soaks me :( But that just means that they are ready for a meeting with Dawn in the washer.I have used every diaper out there it seems except the Flip system. Not so sure ho I feel about them.But my favs right now are BummGenuis and thirsties covers with prefolds.I use a wool cover at night that works wonders.I do give myself a break about twice a year with huggies naturals. I buy a box and that works for about a week for Jolene and I'm good.Then I realize why I cloth.I do not cloth diaper because I don't want the earth to pail up with diapers( although thats nice too) I don't do it to save money( although that's why hubby lets me do it) I do it because I don't want the plastic or chemicals next to my baby. All my kids have very sensitive skin and they get rashes like you would believe. everybody has different reasons for cloth and I'm sure we all can butt heads about it but I love it and also have my days were I don't. I also love seeing Jolene in a cute pink diaper crawling around my floor.Way to cute!!! Anyways tomorrow we have a home visit with our caseworker for foster parenting. We also have a realtor coming to get pic of the house 2 hours later. My mom has been here getting the house house ready for the realtor. Hubby says maybe 4to 6 more weeks before the new house is ready :( They are drywalling this week and then next week taping and mudding it. Then on to painting.Which we thought we could do with some friends but Im thinking we need to hire someone to do it fast.I have great ideas for every room in the house!! Not a good thing either. The next few days are really busy and lots of fun!!

School days

The dog show

My 5 kiddos on the tractor

I was trying to get the whole circle of the MFW group but I got half.

We have been busy doing field trips and My Fathers World co-cops.we had our back to School Bash with our new MFW group yesterday. It was beyond fun. Sp many new homeschoolers. It was nice because they asked me a ton of questions because I was one of the ones who have schooled the longest. We are doing ECC this year and I think there is only one or two others families who have homeschooled before, and the rest, this is there first year.We had a lot of great ideas. The kids are really excited. Its a BIG group of probably over 50 kids who are doing all doing different years in My Fathers World. So here is our co-op sh elude: The 1st and 3rd Friday of the month is our group time from 9:30-45 is Worship, 9:45-11:45 is MFW group time, 11:45-12:30 lunch,12:30 - 2:30 MFW group time. Then the 2nd Friday of the months are World changers Disciple training days. THe 4th Friday of the months are Hand and feet out reach day with missionary speakers.On DTS days we do Art class,sign language class and Drama. Then we visit a care center or things like that. Lots of fun. we are also doing things with our Faith group which is mainly time for the kids to play and moms to talk and have fellowship. We start that back up on Thursday. Another big change in out life is that we are getting ready to start out training for foster parenting. We have prayed and prayed and been lead to do so. we are excited and scared at the same time. We will only start with younger children because we do homeschool and I'm not ready for the older children to have the behavioral problems in their face just yet. Prayer would be welcome for our family as we go through the process of this and the journey of moving in a couple of weeks. Lots to do and its seems to be coming at me full speed. But I have been loving everything second. We had a field trip to Purina Farms the other day for the dog show and the kids had so much fun!! Wore them out. Ended the day with a tractor ride. we are doing week 14 in MFW and are in France. we have borrowed every book from the library about France and Hannah is actually taking French this year so she is speaking French to me and I have no clue what she is saying. he painting we have been studying are so beautiful. We plan to take a trip to the Art Museum in the 2 weeks to wrap up France. Cody has taking off with his Geography and blow me away. He can label North America,South America with a little help and Europe.AMAZING for a child who hates to read and write. When he finds what he likes he take off with it. We were doing FIAR but are getting ready to switch over to Before FIAR for the littles. I thought it would work out great for them and Cody but Cody isn't in to it I'm going to step it down a bit Ethan and Chase. The olders will listen to he story but not required to do the activities with us. I'm sure they will do crafts but no paper work.

Plans for the week ahead:

Sunday- Church, Birthday party Monday: school, Maytag repair guy comes to fix stove top. Tuesday: School Wednesday:Foster meeting Thursday:Faith group at park Friday: MFW co op. Should be a fun week.Blessings

So far so good

Chase wasnt ready to get up so he fell back to alseep on my chair

Mom, can you see me?

Hannah and Kenzey waiting for their turn to bowl( See Hannahs new glasses. Doesnt she look oh so beautiful! )

The kids enjoing a few marshmellows

Chase bowling with Cody helping

Alright this week has been slow and easy so far. we have managed to stay home Monday, Tuesday we ran up town to get milk and then nothing after that. Yesterday I did have to go the store, library, new house and the back to he new house. So yesterday was busy but not bad. we had planned on going to Wednesday night church but the husband wanting food so we had to run over to the house and give it to him which doesn't seem like its that hard but it is if you are planning on doing something. They have about 98% of the siding on and it looks so very pretty! Its getting close to drywall and then the fun begins with painting and floors! Cant wait! I'm going the old fashion country though out the house.My husband and I have been in 2 houses now and we have never decorated one of them so this is really exciting for me. This is our home, the one my husband has been using is hands and love to build for our growing family. The way we want it. God is so good. We have been doing school this and we are in France for MFW these next couple of weeks. Our library had over 15 books for us on France yesterday for our book basket and I think Hannah was over joyed :)We are wanting for our MFW co-op to start soon. We have planned a trip to the zoo next with them so the kids can meet and get to know each other before we start doing classes over other Friday. The moms I have met before but some are new so I'm looking forward to that. Our Faith group for homeschool is starting back up on the 2nd and the kids cant wait. In Oct. my friend is due for her baby boy and I'm so excited for his arrival. Lets see......I'm trying to remember what all we did over the weekend... Friday the kids had a friend sleep over, Saturday we played at the new house and it wash hot, Have I told you I hate hot weather???! Sunday we got up early and went bowling hoping to be out of there by 10:30 am to make it to church by 10:45 which in only like 4 miles up the road from the bowling place. Well it took us from 9:30 to 12:15 to finish 2 games! So needless to say we missed AGAIN! The littles had their time bowling ever and did really well. Ethan wasn't so sure at first But Chase with the help of big brother Cody had the best time throwing the bowling down and jumping for pure joy it made it. Once Ethan saw them having a blast he joined in and was dancing after every throw he did. As the for the girls well they beat me by like 100 points! I wasn't so good. They wouldn't let me have bumpers which was so unfair. It was alot of fun.Tuesday we had a little friend come over to play with the boys. Right he is the one and only boy in his house until his baby brother arrives. He has 3 sisters so he was needing some man time with my 3 boys :) They had so much fun. Cant wait to do it again. Alright I see the time flying by and need a shower and start school with the littles :)

Exhausted

Im tired and it shows

The poop holder going in( My hubby is the guy with his shirt off) what a stud

Hannah and Ethan

The kids playing while the septic was going in. It was really hot

My 3 boys playing play duh for over an hour today

Im exhausted.Why? All I do is run and run and run. My 2 year old today AND now my 3 year old are the whiniest I have EVER seen them. Every stinking day we go somewhere. I don't mind leaving once or twice a week but we places All day along for people and running errands and the library over and over for Hannah and so on and so on. I'm beat and so are they. I'm older kids think they have to run and do things everyday and I'm SICK of hearing where are we going,can we do this and we get this. Money doesn't grow on trees and happiness doesn't come from doing things all the time. Every time we get in the car I hear" can we stop here and get this or I'm hungry" even if I had just feed them.I'm tired and exhausted and ready to move and go nowhere.today was just the kicker for me with Chase whining and whining all day. Its hard for the littles to be in and out of the hot air all day and running everywhere. Phewww it gets hot loading everybody.Everybody is going to have to learn to come see me now because I'm done going everywhere. My house is always open for people.

Outside my window...its hot and dark out

I am thinking...I need a pillow and my husband

I am thankful for...Friends who are going through the same thing.We call and we vent and go ' oh I know what you mean" I am so thankful for friends who have many littles and have days like mine. I wouldn't change on minute buts its nice to vent.

from the learning room... we managed one day of school this week.

I am wearing....really,really

I am creating...Godly children

I am going...to throw clothes in the dryer for church tomorrow then throw diaper's in the wash

I am reading...Matthew

I am hoping...that husband is happy

Around he house...baby sleeping,Ethan watching Franny's Feet,Chase watching Ethan, Hannah, Cody and their friend Kinzey are watching Little House downstairs.

One of my fav things are....nights my husband gives me a smile of contentment

A few plans for the week ahead... Sunday we are bowling early in the morning, then church, then a birthday party. Wed dentist for 4 kids, Thursday water park. I'm sure in that will squeeze a million other things.

we had the septic dug and dropped in today!!! Yea.. now on to the well!!